So I am single. Yup, I am going to say it again, I am single. Being single has its pros and cons, pluses and minuses, just like everything in life. But this, being single, is one of my many trials right now. It has been down right hard and ugly, but all I know to do is to continue to move forward and trust in Heavenly Father's plan for me.
Yes, being single has it great things, like touring Europe for a whole month during the summer (and I would totally do it again in a heartbeat). I can live wherever I can find a job and I can pick up and go places just about most of the time. These things are great and I hope my future husband will love to travel because I have become so accustomed to it.
But let's be honest, being LDS and almost 25 and not married, people tend to wonder "what's wrong with you?" and question why you aren't married. I get the comments of you need to do this or you need to act this way and then you will be sure to find a man. Or better yet, I'll get, you are so wonderful, why aren't you dating anyone??
In all honesty I don't know why I am not married or dating someone at this moment, but I do know that I needed to go through a lot of different experiences, while I am single, to make me be a better person, wife, and mother. I look back at my 20 year old self and who I am now and I know that I was not ready for what was ahead of me in years to come. Heavenly Father is slowly shaping and forming me to be able to be ready for when the time is right for me to enter into his Holy Temple and be sealed to my husband. But right now I am learning more about myself and my relationship with my Heavenly Father in ways that I could not even fathom.
"Prayer is less about changing our circumstances and more about changing us. It is about seeking His will and asking for His help to do what we need to do. "
-Kevin W. Pearson
(Improving Your Personal Prayers)
I found this quote this summer as I was going through a trying time in my life. I was confused why the guy I was seeing wasn't working out how I wanted to and why Heavenly Father wasn't listening to the perfect plan I had made for myself. I now know why things didn't work out and I am glad that I have had this trial for my relationship to improve with my Heavenly Father.
That's so hard Michelle! My heart goes out to you. I honestly can't say that I know how you feel, but I can imagine. And you're right, it definitely would try my faith. But we all get different trials and challenges. And they are all meant to bring us closer to God. Some marry right away, but then have trouble having kids. Some get married, and end up having to work out a lot of issues throughout their whole marriage. Some even get divorced later. So marriage isn't always glamorous, and sometimes even becomes a trial.
ReplyDeleteBut if you work for and pray for your righteous desire, and stay faithful, Heavenly Father, can't hold back the blessings forever. They'll come. And Mr. Right will come too.
Thanks Chelsea! I have seen so many blessings in my life and I have come to know that as I continue to be obedient and follow the counsel of Heavenly Father my desire will be granted to me. Hope all is well for you!
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